Saturday, December 31, 2011

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

A much needed reflection

Today is one of those days to just sit, look out the window and reflect on things, which is exactly what I'm doing. I got my work done for the day and don't go into Walmart til 6 so I have plenty of time to just reflect. I'm not going to go into too much detail about it but I will hit some high points in this post. It's been a while since my last one so I figure this is a good one to make up for the lost time.

Monday, November 28, 2011


So I've been going through training over the last few days at Walmart. I've spent about 16 hours sitting at a computer and watching informational videos. My eyes and brain hurt right now. Well, funny thing, I found out that quite a bit of the stuff I was watching didn't matter. I will be a cashier but the system that they use in the videos isn't the system they use anymore. So all that time that I spent was pretty much wasted because I will have to learn everything with the new system.
I am tempted to make a correlation between that and something within the Church, but I think I will take this one off.

I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving!

Friday, November 25, 2011

Wasted potential

So last night at 1 am, when I was standing outside Best Buy I had a thought, that there is so much potential within people to do great things but we waste it. Naturally the potential is revealed through all the time and resources that we have, but it is also very much through the talents that everyone has. For everybody the opportunities that arise to use our potential vary but the opportunities are there.
It made me sad to see and think about. How we have become so consumed with ourselves and how we can get ahead of the next guy. All I could do was offer a simple prayer. But this morning it's still on my mind, but I think that that is a good thing, remain aware of it and be changed.

Thursday, November 24, 2011

Pre - Thanksgiving Retreat

So I am going to begin this post with a shameless plug for the place we went. It's the wilderness retreat center and is run by wilderness fellowship ministries. That is there website. It was a really good place to just get away for a little while. They had four cabins for group use and also had prayer cabins for more private time. It was rustic but really beautiful! I would very much recommend it for a short retreat. One of the most remarkable parts was that they run through free will donation, crazy right?! They don't force anyone to pay but just expect that the Lord will provide and for the last 40+ years He has.

Anyways, now for the rest of my post!

Saturday, November 12, 2011

Stepping up

Well I got my first newsletter all done, envelopes are addressed and have been stuffed with the letters. All that's left is for me to get the stamps and get them in the mail.
I have gone through many hours of thought but God continues to lead me in this direction and with each step I take I become more locked in toward internship.
The letters will be out soon and then I will just pray and wait for the Lord to provide. I'm glad that I've gotten through this round though and now can turn my attention to other aspects of school.

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

An exciting time, part two!

So I wanted to get this post out much earlier, but it has been a busy time and I've just had a hard time getting my thoughts straight and having a solid block of time to write them out. Well I am just going to go with it, because the longer I wait the less I will be able to remember.
The highlight of the last few weeks is that I was approved to go on internship. I got my team assignment and found out where I am going.

How He Loves Us

So let me just start off by saying that this may be the best post I have written or may ever write. Not for anything I say, that can't be over stated but because of the content and reality of the topic. It's boundless and it's depth is ridiculously great! As the title states I will be talking about the Love of God. But let me start this off with some help from Louie Giglio

There's a lot more to say but I will save it for after the jump.

Sunday, November 6, 2011

Crosswalk media

Pics and Vids from Crosswalk


Well, third time is a charm. I finally had the chance to do a crosswalk on a weekend when I didn't have a scheduling conflict. It started at 4 am on Saturday, October 29. As 5:30 closed in we got into our cars and put our blindfolds on. After 2 hours of been driven out into the country we reached our destination, a grove of trees in the middle of a field. Our driver guided us to walk in one direction and while we walked he drove off.
Want to know what happened next? Click the link and you will find out.

Friday, October 28, 2011

An exciting time, part one!

Well that title is certainly an understatement. God is moving, opening doors and good things keep happening. Because of all the details I am going to break this one up into at least two parts.
If you want to read about it just take the jump!

Friday, October 21, 2011

Highlight Reel

Well, I realized today that I haven't done as much testifying to how God has been moving on campus this year. I can't go back and detail everything, but I'm going to lay it out as best I can and hit the highlights.

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Jehovah Shomer

The Lord our protector. Lately I've been seeing a trend stand out in my reading, that the Lord is our protector. This isn't exactly a new thing, I've heard for a long time that He is our Shield, our Strong tower, and all the stories from the Old Testament of Him winning the battles for His people. But the theme is just a little broader then I previously thought. Looking at Jeremiah 1:19 & also Psalm 3, 4 & 5, God makes it clear that He is on their side. Psalm 3 & 5 both speak of God as the shield, verses 3 & 12 respectively, while Psalm 4 says "for you alone, O Lord, make me dwell in safety." The line in Jeremiah 1 is this "'They will fight against you but will not overcome you, for I am with you and will rescue you,' declares the Lord." He is with us so we don't have to worry about being defeated and He gives the promise of salvation, which is so very sweet!
But do we operate that way? As if God is the one who makes us dwell in safety? For most people I would say no, at least in this society. Unfortunately, we have all we need, so that we really don't need God. We never have to worry about true persecution, yet, and there is so much abundance of all the resources that people really only go to God when they get in a jam. He is Merciful and does meet people in that time, but He is so much more than just a heavenly vending machine. If we would live as His people then He will protect us.
Does that mean that we aren't going to go through hard times? Absolutely not! Being a follower of Christ is one of the hardest things you can do. I'm only 23 and man it's rough having to kill my desires, and I have another 50 - 70 years of doing it to look forward to, unless things get bad and I get taken out. But He will protect us, as we faithfully walk in obedience to His orders.

Monday, October 10, 2011

definition of submission

the action or fact of accepting or yielding to a superior force or to the will or authority of another person they were forced into submission.
• Wrestling an act of surrendering to a hold by one's opponent.
• archaic humility; meekness servile flattery and submission.

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

The unshakeable

I can't exactly remember when I first heard the term oaks of righteousness but I think it was sometime last year. Well last Saturday before outreach it came to mind and I started studying one of the oak trees that are in the courtyard. It didn't take too much examination for me to see that there were many scars on the bark.
Keep reading after the jump

Sunday, September 25, 2011

funny work of being humbled

So a funny thing has been happening lately - my stuff just kind of keeps disappearing. Now in certain circumstances I would claim theft, not here though and not these items. I'll explain more after the jump.

Vision for Internship

One of the main things that I took away from last year was to have and share the vision for internship with people so that they can understand how to support me, both in prayer and financially. Well this will be my attempt at verbalizing my reasoning and vision for internship.

Friday, September 16, 2011

My Class

So yeah these are the ones who got brought back this year. There have already been a memories with them this year and I'm sure there will be more!

Saturday, September 10, 2011

The Servant

The Exalted Servant - Isaiah 52
 13 Behold, My (AB)servant will prosper, 
He will be high and lifted up and [h]greatly (AC)exalted. 
14 Just as many were astonished at you, My people, 
So His (AD)appearance was marred more than any man 
And His form more than the sons of men. 
15 Thus He will (AE)sprinkle many nations, 
Kings will (AF)shut their mouths on account of Him; 
For (AG)what had not been told them they will see, 
And what they had not heard they will understand.
The Suffering Servant - Isaiah 53
 1 (AH)Who has believed our message? 
And to whom has the arm of the LORD been revealed? 
2 For He grew up before Him like a (AI)tender [i]shoot, 
And like a root out of parched ground; 
He has (AJ)no stately form or majesty 
That we should look upon Him, 
Nor appearance that we should [j]be attracted to Him. 
3 He was (AK)despised and forsaken of men, 
A man of [k]sorrows and (AL)acquainted with [l]grief; 
And like one from whom men hide their face 
He was (AM)despised, and we did not (AN)esteem Him.
 4 Surely our [m]griefs He Himself (AO)bore,
And our [n]sorrows He carried;
Yet we ourselves esteemed Him stricken,
[o]Smitten of (AP)God, and afflicted.
5 But He was [p]pierced through for (AQ)our transgressions,
He was crushed for (AR)our iniquities;
The (AS)chastening for our [q]well-being fell upon Him,
And by (AT)His scourging we are healed.
6 All of us like sheep have gone astray,
Each of us has turned to his own way;
But the LORD has caused the iniquity of us all
To [r]fall on Him.
 7 He was oppressed and He was afflicted,
Yet He did not (AU)open His mouth;
(AV)Like a lamb that is led to slaughter,
And like a sheep that is silent before its shearers,
So He did not open His mouth.
8 By oppression and judgment He was taken away;
And as for His generation, who considered
That He was cut off out of the land of the [s]living
(AW)For the transgression of my people, to whom the stroke was due?
9 His grave was assigned with wicked men,
Yet He was with a (AX)rich man in His death,
(AY)Because He had (AZ)done no violence,
Nor was there any deceit in His mouth.
 10 But the LORD was pleased
To (BA)crush Him, [t](BB)putting Him to grief;
If [u]He would render Himself as a guilt (BC)offering,
He will see (BD)His [v]offspring,
He will prolong His days,
And the [w]good (BE)pleasure of the LORD will prosper in His hand.
11 As a result of the [x]anguish of His soul,
He will (BF)see [y]it and be satisfied;
By His (BG)knowledge the Righteous One,
My Servant, will justify the many,
As He will (BH)bear their iniquities.
12 Therefore, I will allot Him a (BI)portion with the great,
And He will divide the booty with the strong;
Because He poured out [z](BJ)Himself to death,
And was (BK)numbered with the transgressors;
Yet He Himself (BL)bore the sin of many,
And interceded for the transgressors.

Thursday, September 8, 2011


So I have been slowly reading through Psalms, often spending 3-5-7 days on one or two chapters. During that time I would just reread it, pray into it and just let it settle itself into me. Well the last week and a half or so I have read through chapters 146, 147, 148, 149 and 150. In those five chapters is says roughly 25 times, in the NIV, to praise the Lord. To my mind that is striking for two reasons; 1) God ended with emphasis on praise for Him as a main element, 2) It reminds me of David praising God in 2 Samuel 6.

Thursday, September 1, 2011

How great is our God!

well, it's just about 1 am and I am not even close to being a position of going to bed. Normally that would really irritate me but I don't care at all right now. Wanna know why? Well you will have to take the plunge.

Sunday, August 28, 2011

Rolling, Rolling, Rolling

Man, I've been so busy these last few weeks. I am trying to find time to keep this thing up to date, but it isn't working out too well for me lately.

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

(the last weeks of) Summer-ization

So yeah the last few weeks have been pyscho crazy and haven't had much time to post so yeah I haven't written anything for a couple weeks. Here are my top five things of the last couple weeks.
5. People are beginning to return to campus! So yeah it's really good to see some familiar faces around campus and to know that school is about to begin again. I haven't been this excited for a school year, probably ever and yeah the first sign is the people getting back so I love it!

4. The summer of  work is wrapped. It's been really good working this summer but I am very much ready to be done. The last week of work our replacements have been getting trained in so most of the tasks that I have been doing are being done by others which has left me with a lot of monkey work to do to fill my days. Anyway, Friday it wraps and yeah its good!

3. Football is back. Should never been a question but people are greedy. Related and even better - FANTASY FOOTBALL! Time to see if my squad can live up to the potential and get me a championship!

2. The furnace - "experiencing the Lord's refining fire". Probably one of the most exciting ideas God has given me so far. It stems from two main veins - prayer nights that happened roughly once a month through the first 2/3 of last year and wanting to experience God's refining fire. Well the premise of it is to go from a midnight to 6 am prayer session one night a month to a 60 hr prayer intensive anywhere from one weekend a month to every weekend (we are still trying to figure that detail out). Instead of having it in the prayer room we will be moving it to a more casual space that would foster a different atmosphere. The reasoning behind such a dramatic increase in length is to allow for people to come and go according to their schedules and not miss out on it.  The main focus of the time would be prayer and fellowship with Jesus but there would also be times of praise, a communion time and a movie related to moves of God or His glory. We are still seeking to know whether we should have it monitored the entire time or leave it open for a period of time where people could come but there wouldn't be anyone of the leaders in the room.
I'm blown away by the idea because everybody I have told so far has been so excited and yeah it's totally the Lord's doing. It's radical, but people, myself included, keep saying that we want to change the world and that will only happen if we go after radical ideas of faith.

1. I got a niece. It happened a few weeks back on a Tuesday and yeah once I found out after work I was pumped. I had prayer group that night and the other people asked me why I was so happy and excited. I've been waiting for a few years for it to happen, much longer then either of my brothers have been married but I'm glad it happened this way!

So yeah that's the last few weeks for me. I'll try to find more time to blog but with everybody getting back and all the orientation stuff that's coming my way soon it will be difficult.

Sunday, August 7, 2011

quirks/pet peeves

I detest gum. I am not much of a country boy but too often it just looks like people are cows as they chew it and then when they snap it and blow bubbles, there is just no way to look intelligent chewing gum. Gah.
I like sleeping in as dark of a room as possible with as little noise as possible.
I strongly dislike talking on the phone. When I have to I always put it on speaker and generally, when a conversation goes for longer than 5 minutes I begin to zone out.
I dislike receiving picture messages because I can never access them.
I dislike people who are smart but act stupid.
I email when I have to, but it's not my favorite form of comm either.
I have a freakish ability tolerate hot and cold. Examples, it will be 85/90 and humid and I was have the windows closed with no A/C. It's blizzarding in the middle of Feb and I walking around outside in a cut off, shorts and flip-flops.
I have an infatuation with cheese

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

the walk of the wicked (Romans 1)

For the wrath of God is revealed from heaven against all ungodliness and unrighteousness of men who suppress the truth in unrighteousness, because that which is known about God is evident within them; for God made it evident to them. For since the creation of the world His invisible attributes, His eternal power and divine nature, have been clearly seen, being understood through what has been made, so that they are without excuse. For even though they knew God, they did not honor Him as God or give thanks, but they became futile in their speculations, and their foolish heart was darkened. Professing to be wise, they became fools, and exchanged the glory of the incorruptible God for an image in the form of corruptible man and of birds and four-footed animals and crawling creatures. Therefore God gave them over in the lusts of their hearts to impurity, so that their bodies would be dishonored among them. For they exchanged the truth of God for a lie, and worshiped and served the creature rather than the Creator, who is blessed forever. Amen. For this reason God gave them over to degrading passions; for their women exchanged the natural function for that which is unnatural, and in the same way also the men abandoned the natural function of the woman and burned in their desire toward one another, men with men committing indecent acts and receiving in their own persons the due penalty of their error. And just as they did not see fit to acknowledge God any longer, God gave them over to a depraved mind, to do those things which are not proper, being filled with all unrighteousness, wickedness, greed, evil; full of envy, murder, strife, deceit, malice; they are gossips, slanderers, haters of God, insolent, arrogant, boastful, inventors of evil, disobedient to parents, without understanding, untrustworthy, unloving, unmerciful; and although they know the ordinance of God, that those who practice such things are worthy of death, they not only do the same, but also give hearty approval to those who practice them.

in pursuit of God - updated

There are a few sayings I have that are really slogans for my life. Two of the first ones are in my names here, days of a disciple and a work in progress but another has been coming up with me lately and that is the title of this piece.

Saturday, July 23, 2011

How blessed do we need to be?

The fourth of July is long since past, but something came to mind that I was going to write about didn't have time to until now. We have this phrase, "God bless America" that I heard often around that time and will hear periodically throughout the year, but here are my thoughts about it.

Sunday, July 17, 2011

What's in a name?

While I was at sonshine the three fold signicance of my names struck me and yeah these are the last details that I will be sharing concerning the festival.

Ministry, Music and Me

It's crazy to think that it's been 8 years since I first stepped foot on the Willmar HS campus for Sonshine but man it's been a good ride. A lot of fun memories over all those mid-July weeks but this one may just be the best so far.

Friday, July 8, 2011

Day to day

I have a certain routine to life these days and well I guess I will just chronicle the expected happenings.

Monday, July 4, 2011

Busiest lazy weekend I can remember

So it's the fourth of July weekend and I was really hoping to have a lot of downtime over the long weekend, it hasn't happened. Just a word, this is a really stinking long post!

Thursday, June 30, 2011


So I have noticed an interested phenomena in a lot of Jesus followers, having a fear of God. Not the biblical fear which denotes an awe inspired and reverent position toward God, which most people still don't possess, but I am talking more about people being afraid of God. Now on one side it's fair to argue that because of His standing we should be afraid of Him, but that's not based in scripture so I won't even give that any weight.
In our dealings with God there is often a subconscious tendency toward having to cover our back sides in case God feels like spanking us or put another way, something bad happens. Now that's kind of a contrary opinion to what the scripture says. In the Testaments it talks of God as a father, a brother, a rear guard. And not to get it confused, but none of those positions are spoken of and testified to in a negative way.
The one that most intrigues me is the rear guard. That's kind of a foreign concept to modern folk and even more so when we have no military background. Well from what I have heard, the rear guard were the soldiers who trailed behind, pretty self explanatory but the wonderful element is that it means that God has our back. Now I may be unique but that makes me tingle. Putting it another way, for a small business to get started there needs to be a financial backer who believes in the company and those who are in charge of it. Now God is the one who is supposed to be in charge of our lives, but the principle still applies. I really like that the creator of all that we have has my back.
I also realized that because he has our back protected we are not provided with any protection for our backs amongst the armor of God. I have always heard that we weren't given back covering so that we couldn't run away, and still agree with that but we don't need to run away if God is protecting that part of us.
I may be way out in left field on this one, but going from the scriptures I don't think I am. Moses spent 80 days with God on the mountain and it is said that he saw Him face to face. Now that's a relationship that I would love to have!
I can't say that I don't have a fear of God, but He keeps proving Himself as the faithful, loving and just One. All attributes that He operates in perfectly and at the same time. I don't know how but I love it because God isn't in a box. So live in awe of Him, but don't be afraid that He is going to just snap on you and begin making your life a hell on earth.

Monday, June 27, 2011

Acts 2:37-47

The Ingathering

Now when they heard this, they were pierced to the heart, and said to Peter and the rest of the apostles, “Brethren, what shall we do?” Peter said to them, “Repent, and each of you be baptized in the name of Jesus Christ for the forgiveness of your sins; and you will receive the gift of the Holy Spirit. For the promise is for you and your children and for all who are far off, as many as the Lord our God will call to Himself.” And with many other words he solemnly testified and kept on exhorting them, saying, “Be saved from this perverse generation!” So then, those who had received his word were baptized; and that day there were added about three thousand souls. They were continually devoting themselves to the apostles’ teaching and to fellowship, to the breaking of bread and to prayer. Everyone kept feeling a sense of awe; and many wonders and signs were taking place through the apostles. And all those who had believed were together and had all things in common; and they began selling their property and possessions and were sharing them with all, as anyone might have need. Day by day continuing with one mind in the temple, and breaking bread from house to house, they were taking their meals together with gladness and sincerity of heart, praising God and having favor with all the people. And the Lord was adding to their number day by day those who were being saved.

uff da

Well let me just say that this has been kind of a crazy few days. It started on Friday afternoon. I got back from work and read a text from a buddy with some bad news. It was hard to hear but my reaction wasn't what it would have been say a year or two ago. I was sorrowful but didn't blame God or doubt Him. Well later that day I decided to go on outreach with a couple other people downtown through Street level. So yeah, downtown on a beautiful Friday night in the summer. It was a level of crazy like I didn't understand. I have a heart to intercede for that part of the city but I didn't know what it was actually like and I'm sure that I didn't see the worst of it. But again, while it made me sad to see lives wasted, I wasn't shaken as I would have been before.
Then on Saturday I decided to go to the christian bookstore to check out their music. On my way back I had some car trouble. I was able to get back to school, which considering how my car has been behaving since I am definitely crediting to God. Obviously that's not a major thing, but it just added to the other things but I still didn't respond negatively to God. Then I got a ride to the gym and while I was there I saw a news report about more flooding in ND. That's when it really became clear to me that the Enemy was making a real push to attack me on an emotional level. God designed me with emotions as a central operating mechanism in my life and yeah Satan was trying to twist that against God. Well he didn't succeed. Despite his efforts Satan wasn't able to shake me. More then anything that has happened I finally was able to see how deep my roots have gone in God.
I rejoice in it because until the roots are strong enough there can't be any fruit. In my prayer God told me that I am entering the time of reaping. That's a scary thought but I'm not scared about it. I know that as long as I abide in Christ and follow the example of the disciples I won't stray. As for the timing of the season, I don't feel ready but God's timing is perfect so that's nothing to worry about.

Sunday, June 26, 2011

How Great Jesus is!

Warning: Don't start viewing them if you don't have time to watch them all in one sitting. 

Now praise Him!

Saturday, June 25, 2011

Have we reached the limit? It seems no

So last weekend I went back to my hometown for one night just to collect most of the rest of my things. As I was about 20 minutes away I started flipping through the radio stations. I haven't been around there much and didn't know which numbers were which for them. I figured out that there are 5/6 christian stations just on the fm side of the dial. Now, I may be naive but for a tri-town that size it seems a little excessive. Like I realize there are a lot of people who regularly attend a congregation in the area but it just doesn't make sense to me. The only thing that I can really settle on about it is that it is the result of the christian culture we live in. We choose churches more from the fit to our preference then anything to what they teach or how they conduct themselves as believers. Even the few examples I can think of where people choose based on something regarding teaching it is usually pretty insignificant.
We forget about God.
We forget about Jesus.
We forget about the Spirit of Jesus.
We forget about the ones who don't know Him.
We forget about the ones who think they know Him.
So none of those things factor in. We go to churches that do what we want so that we wouldn't get uncomfortable, because you know, that's when there is growth.  So we will continue to choose and have choices so that we can just got about business as it has been so that things won't change, yet pray for revival at random times. Seems like a dichotomy to me, but maybe that's because of my perspective. One thing is for sure, we haven't reached the limit of the buyer's christian, but when we do, it will crash harder then the stock market ever has.

Monday, June 20, 2011

Check that temp

An accurate thermostat
I like to worship. Partly because I know how worthy God is of it and partly because I enjoy it. I grew up in a church where there was and is one unwritten/unspoken rule during the service. Don’t have fun. We talk about orderly worship, about not making people feel uncomfortable, that it isn’t how people express themselves but aren’t those all excuses to cover up the fact that they fear the inevitable emotions that come with freedom in praise? Maybe that’s too much of a generalization, but I would say that it is also very accurate.
For my part, I remember always loving to go to bible camp because I could express my praise to God how ever I saw fit. In my younger days one short week out of the summer with a few other random weekends through out the year was good enough but as my passion for God has grown so has my love for worship, which brings me to the real reason I am posting right now.
A few years ago, at the Chi Alpha fall retreat was the first time I full abandoned my ideas about praise. I was dancing and just celebrating Him. I later got questioned about it but never really responded, didn’t know what to say at the time and because of my school setting the dryness began to dry me up. Well as with many other things God was really shaking the rust off this year at school. I was letting Him operate in increased fullness as the year progressed but my praise never really got back to that place of full abandonment.
Last night things changed.
The internet had been offline at BCOM for about 24 hours but right around 3:30 it finally came back. I checked my facebook page and the first hit in my newsfeed was from a band named Desperation band. I usually only read a couple items in my feed, but this one stuck out to me. It said that “.” I didn’t have any plans for that evening so that became the event of the day. I found out it was only $5 so yeah I was locked in. I had the feeling like this was a divine appointment just because of the circumstances.
I got to North Central University at about 6:40, the auditorium that the show was being held in had a stated seating of 1000 so I expected it to be packed out. It got to about 7:05 and there was at most 400 people in the auditorium, which made it feel more like a local band then one of the nations leading praise teams but I was fine with it. After a few announcements the band started up.
It turned out to be one of the most enjoyable nights of the year so far. I didn’t care about the opinions of the people around me, how looked or anything, I was just letting it all happen and it was fun and good and pleasing to God, He told me so, ha. I danced, wept, raised my hands, sat in awe, basically everything that good worship entails. It takes a special type of conditioning to what I did and I really don’t know how I managed it, I’ll call it God’s help again. I was still freaking tired afterward but when I got back a few of the guys that I live with said that I had a glow and while I’ve been told that before, it’s been a while and was really refreshing to hear again.
I broke free and was unabandoned, that’s the point. It was just a few months shy of three years since the last time, but it was worth the wait and will happen again much sooner next time. What I thought was going to be a fun time where I knew God was going to do something turned out to be the best thermometer of where I am at now that I have experienced so far.

Thursday, June 16, 2011

The rule of thirds - roommate style

I'm going off the cuff this time because well I think that I have an unusual observation to make.

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Confirm it!

So it's been a while since I have written about any like sweet miraculous stuff that has happened in my life. The reason for that is because there really haven't been any for a while. That changed this past sunday.

Friday, June 10, 2011

A legit desperation

Yesterday I was at work, listening to my Hillsong cds and the song Hosanna came on, it's a good song if you haven't heard it before, but one part of the lyrics stood out to me uniquely. In the second verse the line

"I see a near revival 
Stirring as we pray and seek
We're on our knees
We're on our knees"
really got me thinking.

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

tick tock tick tock. trying to understand the timing of God

Well I've been through a couple schools and have noticed that the grad class that I end up in fits me much better then the one preceding it. This was especially true at AFLBS but has also proven true at BCOM. Not to bash on the older groups but with AFLBS I just wouldn't have made it for two years with the conflicting personality types where as I was able to manage it with the guys that were in my group. It's kind of crazy though, because a friend of mine prophesied to me about one of the relationships that I would have at AFLBS and the prophecy has come true. It's an ongoing thing but it has happened as I was told.
At BCOM it has been for different reasons. I would have fit ok in this past years sophomore class but fit much better in mine. Just the way that people operate and how our class is constructed works very well for me and with me.
But I think beyond even the schools I have been in God has been setting me up for a special purpose through a lot of the relationships I have had going back all the way to Junior high. The fact was pointed out to me by my friend, the one who was the fulfillment of the prophecy, that people a lot of times will dumb their baggage on me. Some of it is my fault but not always and it has happened with out me even really seeking it. Maybe people sense they can trust me, God would get the credit for that or maybe God just wants it to be that way. In any case, it's good because I have really been able to learn that they aren't throwing their burdens on me but on Christ instead. And it is He who takes the weight of their burdens, I rarely, as rarely as possible, take on people's issues. I don't think I would have been able to handle it to this point if I took their burdens on me when I can barely handle mine so much of the time.

Well while I really don't see how God's timing is playing together I have been shown enough to rejoice in it and wait eagerly for a greater understanding.