Well, I've gone through a crazy amount of trials and tough times since coming here and well before too but it's gotten cranked up since I started at Bethany. In my quiet times God will ask me if I want more trials, last year it was often within a few days of the last tough time ending and with an eye looking forward I would say yes. After a few weeks to almost 2 months I would not be enjoying it too much and wouldn't have the best attitude. Not to long after I would remember that time and conversation and have an attitude check. That was the pattern for most of last year and has happened a couple times this year too.
To think of these times as the designs being made in the pot is super encouraging. I don't know how much I have to go through the engraving process but part of me hopes that the firing process is coming soon. That said, I know it's going to be crazy intense so I'm not going to rush it, not that I even could. I have a suspicion that it will come during my time in Kenya but that's too far away for me to know. In any case, it's a good thing and may encourage someone in a tough time. God is still working and He knows what He's doing!